runningin3time

I thought it might be worth posting a vimeo video (is that the right expression?) on here… we have had a fair amount of views on our Facebook page but can always do with more!  But also I have very conflicting feelings about this, which reflect the way I feel about my singing generally (even about me and Life?). There’s still a little voice in my head saying “what do you think you are doing – what makes you think you’re good enough (reasonable enough) to stand up and sing in public?”.  Last year (2015) I had, for some of the time, the support and encouragement of a man who loved me – I know all too well one shouldn’t need to rely on the support of others, but it really makes a difference.  I miss that man and I miss singing for him – he was one of my biggest fans.  And I have other loyal fans – my friend Clare and her Dad – but the little voice in my head then says ‘are they biased?’… (shut up, little voice!).

Anyhow, enough rambling… here’s the video, out into the world… but why did Cath put so much more of Deborah on it than me?  Was she saying Deborah is better than me?  etc. etc… As ever, the dilemma is why do I seek to perform and then wonder whether on earth I should be doing so?  But perhaps that’s the paranoia of every performer…